Meshugge for my Mashiach

It is good to be near you

To be hidden in the shadow of Your wings...
It's the safest place to be but also can be the hardest place to stay. It is my heart's cry that Abba will draw me close to Himself, nestle me close to His bosom, in the cleft of the rock, and all those wonderful cliches we like to use.

SO Abba in his faithfulness opens the door for me. He draws me to HImself.
To do so, however, He first has to turn "my life" upside down. He has to remove all the things that stand in the way of allowing Him complete control. For how can I come into His throne room with idols in my hand?

So the purging starts, and in my view it is complete chaos... I see everything going wrong, nothing makes sense, nothing is going according to my plan for my life... and this is just the beginning.

He breaks me down, see, He sears my heart of pride, He crushes my illusions about my own strength. I get to the point where I am utterly helpless and totally dependent on His favor. I am weak, with no plans, with no idea as to where tomorrow will lead... only hoping, praying that He will not forsake me, becasue He is my only hope, the very light of my eyes.

In that light, I listen more closely to His voice... I rejoice to catch a whisper from His mouth... I exult in the glory of His creation. The trees, flowers, music, sunlight, laughter, all become reasons to praise my creator. His faithfulness, His mercy, is stark and clear to me. I cannot take it for granted, and I cannot help but extol Him, but sing alous of His goodness to me, shout of His favor, which is more precious than life.

Just then His voice startles me as He whispers into my ear... "I have drawn you with lovingkindness" and I realize that I am near Him.

I will sing of Your mercy, Abba. For You alone are worthy of my praise.

It is good to be near You.

posted by Handmaiden @ 10:01 pm